"Don't think about making art, just get it done. Let everyone else decide if it's good or bad, whether they love it or hate it. While they are deciding, make even more art" Andy Warhol
I love this. A CMC friend posted it and talked about how it's good to remember because it's easy as a songwriter to be so focused on writing the perfect song, the perfect line--that you never end up writing anything. That's challenged me the last few days to just write and not critique what comes out until after it's out. That's my new goal--to remember to write and save rewriting for later.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Mmhmm!
This is SO cool. Check it out. Paul Simon invites a fan to play his song at his concert!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXBlY5CImUU
Oh yeah. That's music right there.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXBlY5CImUU
Oh yeah. That's music right there.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Week One of Real Life
Oh man. It's been a while since I've written anything. Whoops. Let my summarize:
I graduated on May 7th.
I am now a real adult.
That's scary.
I have a job at a sports center working in child care, running day camps and occasionally doing some birthday parties. I'm also trying to get a second job at CCU doing summer conferencing.
I'm working two jobs because I am a) scared that I won't be able to make enough money to be a real adult and b) because I want to move back to Nashville in the fall--and that is gonna take money. I wasn't so sure about moving back to Nashville, but Fleming of course made some good points when he said "I don't know why you wouldn't. You want to keep doing music--and that's where music is. You're not tied down in any way and this is the only time in your life you'll be able to do something like just pick up and move without a million other considerations." He's right. So--barring any life altering changes in the next few months, the plan is to end up in Nashville. I'm excited about that because there are CMC friends who will be living there as well and I just miss that community of musicians. What I have in Denver can't compare.
The fact that I graduated is surreal and seems almost menial. I don't feel like a different person for having graduated at all. I thought I was supposed to feel different. But I don't. I keep having to look at the pictures from last weekend to remember that it actually happened. Weird.
Lastly--I've been writing a little since I've been back, but it's hard. How do I know if the songs I'm writing are any good if I don't have anyone to play them for who will give me honest feedback?
I graduated on May 7th.
I am now a real adult.
That's scary.
I have a job at a sports center working in child care, running day camps and occasionally doing some birthday parties. I'm also trying to get a second job at CCU doing summer conferencing.
I'm working two jobs because I am a) scared that I won't be able to make enough money to be a real adult and b) because I want to move back to Nashville in the fall--and that is gonna take money. I wasn't so sure about moving back to Nashville, but Fleming of course made some good points when he said "I don't know why you wouldn't. You want to keep doing music--and that's where music is. You're not tied down in any way and this is the only time in your life you'll be able to do something like just pick up and move without a million other considerations." He's right. So--barring any life altering changes in the next few months, the plan is to end up in Nashville. I'm excited about that because there are CMC friends who will be living there as well and I just miss that community of musicians. What I have in Denver can't compare.
The fact that I graduated is surreal and seems almost menial. I don't feel like a different person for having graduated at all. I thought I was supposed to feel different. But I don't. I keep having to look at the pictures from last weekend to remember that it actually happened. Weird.
Lastly--I've been writing a little since I've been back, but it's hard. How do I know if the songs I'm writing are any good if I don't have anyone to play them for who will give me honest feedback?
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Best 24 Hours Ever
That was one of the best 24 hours of my life. Kylie, Whitney, Murphy and Joe came through Denver on their tour to California and it was incredible. To start off, we played a show at Quixotes True Blue Bar last night. Granted, there weren't many people there, but it was so good to hear Kylie and Whit's songs again and get to play with my CMC friends. After the show, Joe and Chris left to hang out with other Denver friends so Kylie, Whit and I spent the night eating a frozen pizza and drinking warm beer, reminiscing about CMC and catching up. Priceless.
Today the original plan was to get a rehearsal in and play another show at Quixotes. However, after much debate and a few alternate plans that fell through, we ended up just hanging out. We went to Lookout mountain and took a lot of great pictures--enjoyed the mountains of Colorado. Then we went downtown, ate at Johnny Rockets and then the guys got beer at Yard House while me, Kylie and Whit got goodies from the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory.
And that's why I love Colorado--mountains and city in the same day.
Having them here really cemented the fact that CMC is truly a family and that the relationships I have there will last a lifetime. It's a bond different than anything else I have in any other group. I think I love it more than I understand, and I think it's consequences run deeper than I'm aware. I'm convinced that music is a large part of why that bond is so significant and will be so lasting. There's something about growing close with people all focused on something so intricate, personal and moving as music. It changes you.
I wouldn't trade my experience for anything.
Today the original plan was to get a rehearsal in and play another show at Quixotes. However, after much debate and a few alternate plans that fell through, we ended up just hanging out. We went to Lookout mountain and took a lot of great pictures--enjoyed the mountains of Colorado. Then we went downtown, ate at Johnny Rockets and then the guys got beer at Yard House while me, Kylie and Whit got goodies from the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory.
And that's why I love Colorado--mountains and city in the same day.
Having them here really cemented the fact that CMC is truly a family and that the relationships I have there will last a lifetime. It's a bond different than anything else I have in any other group. I think I love it more than I understand, and I think it's consequences run deeper than I'm aware. I'm convinced that music is a large part of why that bond is so significant and will be so lasting. There's something about growing close with people all focused on something so intricate, personal and moving as music. It changes you.
I wouldn't trade my experience for anything.
Friday, April 29, 2011
One Week Later...
Well, I've been gone from the CMC for almost exactly a week. It's been a weird week--I've been relaxed, busy and bored. Had a lot to do, and a lot of nothing to do. I've been reunited with friends and feel like I was genuinely missed by a number of people--a nice way to feel!
I've moved in with Natalie at her parent's house and I'm about half way unpacked. I have basically no motivation to finish unpacking however. Also--I have a job! And I will start working Tuesday which is nice that I can start getting hours so soon. It's at the gym that Natalie works at with the Little Kickers program so I'll be helping run kids day camp, soccer classes, child care and stuff. Not sure exactly what all I'll be doing but--I'm pretty sure I can get plenty of hours and it will pay as well as anything else I can get right out of school. So that's been a huge blessing.
It's been really nice outside the last two days which has helped my mood since I've definitely struggled with being sad and missing people from CMC. In fact--I think I'll go find something to do outside instead of be on this computer any longer!
I've moved in with Natalie at her parent's house and I'm about half way unpacked. I have basically no motivation to finish unpacking however. Also--I have a job! And I will start working Tuesday which is nice that I can start getting hours so soon. It's at the gym that Natalie works at with the Little Kickers program so I'll be helping run kids day camp, soccer classes, child care and stuff. Not sure exactly what all I'll be doing but--I'm pretty sure I can get plenty of hours and it will pay as well as anything else I can get right out of school. So that's been a huge blessing.
It's been really nice outside the last two days which has helped my mood since I've definitely struggled with being sad and missing people from CMC. In fact--I think I'll go find something to do outside instead of be on this computer any longer!
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Not What I Expected
I'm back. It's surreal. Denver doesn't feel like home today. I see people I know and it doesn't excite me like I thought it would. All I want is to be back in my family. The CMC.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Didn't know I was Lacking
I found support I didn't know I was lacking this semester. I have an amazing group of friends and mentors at CCU and I thought I was complete--that was all I needed. But I realized as we sat in a circle last night sharing our thoughts about the semester that I had found something I was missing before and I didn't even know it. The people here supported me in a way no one else has--it was about my music. People here actually had genuine interest in my music and what I wanted to. They were patient with me as I had an identity crisis and was Amy Lee one week, Carole King another and a female Damien Rice the next. Being supported here in that way made ME believe in my music and see myself as a musician, a singer and a songwriter in a way I never had before. This was exactly what I needed.
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