Shadows

Welp. another song.

His broken heart in every lyric ever written
He is crushed every time she leads him on
There are no chains keeping him from walking away
So why he stays nobody knows


Move on he says he knows he should
But he’s afraid this is as good as it gets--no


Next time she says hello
Tell her goodbye for real
It might feel wrong but in the end you’ll see it’s right
‘Cause you’re hangin’ on too tight
To shadows in the night
It might feel wrong but in the end you’ll know it’s right

He’s halfway there took that first step out the door but
She cries I want you as my friend
Decision time will he take that next step away
He cries I’m not coming back this time

Move on he says he knows he should
Move on this time he’ll walk away--yeah

Lately Tonight

Newest song. I just can't decide on the last line of the chorus. Just can't decide what I like better.


Lately you’ve been hard so hard to read
Lately you’ve been so hard to reach
Lately you’ve had so little to say
Lately I don’t know what to do

Tonight there's something on my mind
Something that I need to tell you
Tonight, even though you didn’t ask
Tonight, I’m gonna tell you that


I’m thinking that maybe this isn’t right
I’m thinking we’re not meant to be more
I’m thinking that maybe we should just stop where we are
I’m thinking that we’re better as friends (or “and go back to just being friends”)


Tonight I waited by the phone
Tonight I found myself alone
Your heart, well it needs some time to heal
Your heart is why I say...that

CHORUS

I wanna go back
Before it's too late
Before it's too hard
To turn around

I wanna go back
Before it's too late
Before we're too far
To turn around

CHORUS

It's like this....

I just want to write a song. But I don't know what about. I don't know what I'm feeling.

There's this boy
He might like me
I might like him
Maybe

There's this heart (There's these hearts)
It might be healed (They might be healed)
It might be falling (They might be falling)
Maybe

Maybe, just maybe, I could fall for you and
Maybe, just maybe, you could fall for me

There's these friends
They might be friends
They might be more
Maybe

There's these friends
They might be more
They might just work
Maybe

Maybe, just maybe, I could fall for you and
Maybe, just maybe, you could fall for me

You're not who I thought you'd be
And maybe I'm not who you thought I'd be
But maybe we're who each other needs

Maybe, just maybe, I could fall for you and
Maybe, just maybe, you could fall for me



That'll work I guess. The second verse is ALWAYS the hardest to write. Gah.

My Well

"It's like when you're dehydrated and you just want some really cold great water, but you drink soda instead--it's just not....right." That's something I said that kind of inspired this song I guess. And it's rather dualistic--'cause it's about my relationship with God...and this ever evasive other relationship.

I've been living with a well
I didn't know was dry
Damn the wretched rain
For showing me my need

I didn't know my thirst
Until that first taste
And now I ache for more
But the skies refuse to rain

My well is an ache in my heart for you
To be by my side
My well is an ache in my heart
The water I need is the love that you give

Quench my thirst with something that will satisfy
Something that won't leave me dry
Quench my thirst--make it last for more than just tonight
Make me feel alive

My well is an ache in my heart for you
To be by my side
My well is an ache in my heart
The water I need is the love that you give

Friends? ha.

Well. I guess it's always good to find out what people really think.


Like finding out that your friends who have been encouraging you to pursue writing and recording your own music don't actually think you can do it. This being made obvious by the fact that they tell you to find lots of opportunities to play and record--but when an opportunity comes up to play--they tell you they think you're not good enough. Sweet. Never mind that the other people who are playing--half of their songs don't even have memorable or follow-able melodies. Never mind that they have the same "areas of growth" to the same degree that I do--meaning they're not much better than me in the first place. They're just--well, them. and I'm me. Which means I don't get recognized, just patronized. And them? Well they get recognized--and treated like the gods of the CCU music scene. Great.

Well. I should be done with my rant. I guess I'm done writing music for now too.

Unnoticed

Unnoticed
By Until June

Raindrops falling on the rooftop,
leave me feeling lonely.
Left here sitting,
Left here on my own.
Poisen ashes fill my lungs deep with the sounds of silence.
Smoking lies of where to search for love.

And the years go on and on
And the days go by
Oh, and I was unnoticed.

Now I'm older
passed this over
Watched my life grow colder
Holding tighter, never letting go.

Well I need you inside cause I feel so untied and I don't know why,
no I don't
Well I need you inside cause I feel so untied and I don't know why,
no I don't know why
I was unnoticed



Exactly.

To Be Lonely

I’ve never felt this way before

But now I know

I know what it’s like to be lonely

Does anyone know what it’s like

To be lonely?

It’s when something’s wrong and no one cares

as much as you do

It’s when something’s right, and no one cares

as much as you do

Does anyone know what it’s like

To lie all alone

When all you want

Is someone to hold you

To have friends who try

But just aren’t enough

To pray every night and wake up

Feeling the same

I’ve never felt this way before

But now I know

I know what it’s like to be lonely.